this is beyond

Life has a lot of curves winding around merging into one, dead ends off to some beaten path that leads to some quiet field that lets you make your own path or just settle a little while and camp and look up at the stars to bask in the glory of this existence

Just a moment.

I’m sitting in that field, staring up at the stars I’m made of wondering what now.

What is next.

I want to know what’s just beyond the black blanket beyond what I see in the sky the stars which remind me of myself with a flashlight under my covers as a kid too scared to lift the sheet to see the monsters waiting for me beyond only to find when I’m brave enough to see there is nothing but me and the fresh night air and my bravery.

I am holding onto that feeling.

Not helpless

Not hopeless

Because nothing ever stays the same. I won’t be under these blankets of misery and safety much longer. I know there is so much more out there than this but this is where I am I am right here in this moment of roads passed and in fields of stars under a blanket waiting, being here now until the covers are lifted.